I am very emotional this morning as I write this blog. Not out of anything negative, only out of pure joy and gratitude. Why? Because I am leaving Portugal soon…I will be back. Yet this morning as I was journaling I had this huge wave of emotion come through. Portugal has been a beautiful surprise one after another since I stepped into this country 71 days ago. I have been guided, supported, loved, encouraged, expanded, healed and more through my experiences here. It has been such a positive experience like a warm embrace of something very familiar and a place I will always call home. I have travelled and lived many places and Portugal is my favourite.
Now I want to share with you my biggest surprise and my most amazing blessing here. That is my experience with the masculine. I have made the most amazing male friends here. They all have the biggest hearts, they have been the most generous, have had the kindest words, they have expressed the most thoughtful actions and have been my biggest teachers in this lifetime so far. Now that is a lot to say!
I am truly, truly blessed to have all of these men in my life! They have opened my heart and increased my understanding and awareness of what was required for me to grow and learn. They also held the space with love, understanding and support as Leona is being Leona. This is a huge feat in itself. I am so grateful for all of them. I am sure that if I sat here and named them one by one that they would be embarrassed and say “Leona, no problem. It is only normal to be like this.” They have literally opened the doors for me to heal.
What I also realized is that none of this would have showed up if I had not been ready to RECEIVE this. It is because of all of the years of inner work. All of the years of “failing” at relationships. All of the years of peeling back layers of my mask. All of the years of building up “Am I worthy?” All of this has prepared me to receive the beautiful gifts that the masculine has bestowed upon me. I have come back to my love. My beautiful masculine, here in Portugal. This is where my union happened. I will always be so grateful for the men that stepped forward on my journey to provide me with their gifts to make this all a reality.
My Amazing Knights in Portugal! Actually…my Amazing Kings of Portugal!
I am so tempted to name them one by one. Yet they know who they are. They all have my heart…forever and always.