Self doubt is a powerful force. It sneeks in ever so slowly and crumbles your foundation of self confidence and self assurance. It starts to seep into every area of your life leaving you dazed and confused. Until one day you are questioning every aspect of your life. Questioning who you are and why are you here? Have you been wasting your time. Have you lost your credibility? What are you passionate about? You go into the darkest aspects of yourselves and others around you. You doubt every decision ever made. Oh it is sneeky. It starts with the small things and then works its way into everything. Until you are sitting in the middle of a dark space and have absolutely no idea what to do. Then, there is a glimmer of light. Something you can’t put words around. A memory of a time of when there was only love. When an action made a difference. A remembrance of why you are here. Why your impact on this planet is so important. It doesn’t matter what you are doing. It matters the love that you are. The energy of self doubt is such a low vibration of course nothing moves around you. It is like molasses. Slow and sticky. Pulling you into the depths of goo and yuck. Just as you are about to get pulled in forever and lost. There is that flicker you can reach for. The mind has a choice. Reach for it or be pulled forever into the abyss. There I was at the moment of what is the point? I don’t care anymore. Having thoughts of fuck it. I don’t want to do or be anything for anyone else anymore. Uh I have no passion for anything. No interests. No desires. No love. Just blah! I went to bed with these feelings. I had a night full of the strangest dreams. The next morning I looked at myself in the mirror and see this lack lustre person with static hair. Yuck. Who is she? I see her eyes. Her beautiful glowing green eyes. Maybe she is there? I reach for my phone and see a notice on FB. A dear friend is engaged! I am so happy for her. I check out the guy. I look at their photos. She deserves the best after everything in her life. Then the light. I remember when I helped her. We worked together. She was ready to give up. She was in that sticky place. She had no idea what to do yet she was trying everything. Reaching for every glimmer of light. Then I saw it. The banner on her facebook. It said “Just love yourself” Remember the courage it took to say yes to you Leona. The courage it took to say yes to come back to Paris and your husband regardless of the odds. Regardless of the naysayers. Regardless of everything. No money. No idea. No papers. No job. No light. You reached for something you knew. Love. Love that you had for what you had invested in in the first place. Before all the self doubt. Before a time of challenges. I can't give up. They want me to give up. They want me to be powerless and not make a change on this planet and to give up on my mission. They planted self doubt to take me out. To take me off course, to distract me from my mission. Bastards! That is right. That is not very loving yet necessary. I am tired of the bullshit trying to take me off course. I am better than this. I am love. There is no room for self doubt. Just because I can not see the how doesn’t mean I should give up. When I start believing the road will become clear again. Everything will open up. I have just planted all of the seeds and now everything is ready to sprout. I just need to do some weeding and watering. I need to get my shit together again. Make a list. Get into a routine. Have my coffees and lunches. I would love to be on books and stages and platforms and all that will come. As soon as I step back into my purpose. Nice try Self Doubt. You can kiss my butt! I am back. This is my passion. Love. Love Love love and I will share it with the world and I will change the planet. I will assist others who are lost. Loving me first so I can help others! Leona www.AwakenTheBeauty.com
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Do you believe in the power of love? Do you believe in the power of our children? Do you believe that if our children loved themselves more that they could make our world a better place? I do.
Most of you know that I am all about love. I believe in the power of self -love first because without loving yourself first and loving yourself completely, how do you have the capacity to love anything or anyone else? It is just not possible. You could fake it until you make it and your journey will be an interesting one. That is what I was taught and learned from the closest around me, as that is what they learned. Put on a happy face. Always be polite. Always be your best in public. Never lie, cheat, steal or commit adultery. (Just to name a few!) Always keep it together no matter what! Then when no one is looking have a break down, melt down, freak out, what ever. But never let anyone know or witness this act of weakness. They will chew you up and spit you out! Harsh yet true. I am sure many of you can relate. Or perhaps you are not ready to look at this aspect of yourself. Well, I am here to change that journey! To shift the planet! And to empower our children! They are our future and they require the tools to clean up this mess and to create a world that is full of more Peace, Love, Joy, Health, Abundance and Prosperity! All of the things that we are all entitled to experience on this planet. Every single one of us! So how do we do this? Through Love. Easy enough to say yet it is quite a journey. I have the tools to make this happen and I cannot do it alone. I have been afraid to share it with the world because I don’t know how to make it happen by myself. I have thought about it over and over again for years. I have lost sleep. I have cried many, many tears. I have gone into battle with others. I have been to the dark side and I have won! I am ready to share with the world. Yet, I need your help. I don’t know how to get this out to the world. I envision the entire world of children participating and bringing their parents and community with them. Will you help me? I created a powerful 30 day program that can be integrated into any school system, anywhere in the world. I have tested it and have only experienced success! I am looking for “Love Ambassadors” and schools that will assist in getting this program out there! I require a team to translate into every language. A team to train the teachers! A team to implement the program! I require a team to make this vision become our planets reality! I can’t do this alone. Will you help me? Please contact me and I will share more. I don’t have all the answers yet what I do have is love, passion, wisdom, experience and a whole lot of heart to help the children of our planet build a better place to raise a better place to BE! With always love and lights, Leona You can contact me through my website at www.AwakenTheBeauty.com or send me an email to divinebeautyexperiences@gmail.com LOVE is it really that complicated? I can say from my own experience, yes it is. Why? Because the journey is all about unravelling it, studying it, experiencing it so we can really understand it and change at a cellular level. All this so we can arrive at our destination. LOVE. Divine Love. Love without judgement or boundaries. Love without hurt or fear. Love without parameters. Love that is free. Free to flow. Free to ride the ebbs and flows of our experiences. Love only becomes complicated when we go into our heads about it. Only when we start to say it “should” look like this or that. Or it “should” feel like this. Or it “should” be a certain way. Or if I don’t have this or that than it can’t be love or it “should” be love. This kind of love has so much heaviness about it. That is okay. I understand why not. So we can unravel it and experience it. My experience is that I never gave myself that freedom to experience freely. It had a lot of judgement around “how” I should experience love and “how” it should show up. Than when I understood I required to surrender to it. Learn how to flow with it. Become a master at riding the surf. Then when I had an inner standing of my journey. Not only embracing the “light” and the “dark”, the “feminine aspects” and the “masculine aspects” yet also integrating and come into union with all of it. I mean ALL of it. That I completely KNOW what LOVE is.
Now this journey takes courage, determination, authenticity, trust and faith. I had two out of five. Than I gathered the others through my journey of love. Self Love. You may have been thinking that I was talking about love for others. Well that is part of it. Yet knowing that all of them are me and I am them. Accepting all of them, the bad, the good, the dark and the light. Integrating all of that into the now. There is the POWER of this journey! I have an inner standing of complete acceptance of all of it. The entire journey. All of it are the secret ingredients into the person I Am at this moment and I love her. She is amazing! She is tenacious, determined, courageous, trusting, authentic, raw, loving, powerfully vulnerable, wise beyond her physical years, kind and generous. She cries, she laughs, she gets angry, she is happy, she is grateful, she is abundant, she is scared, she is fearless, she is loving, she is determined, she is trustful, she comes from her heart, she is me! I love her. My journey of experiences and life long education has allowed me to BE a Self Love Expert. My desire is for everyone to BE a Self Love Expert. What do I do? I Guide you to BE your Unique Expression of the ONE. I hold a loving and safe space for the unravelling to take place easily and effortlessly. I hold you accountable on your journey while empowering you with beautiful, loving and powerful tools. I hold you. I listen to you. I see you. I love you! So if this resonates with you on your journey, I invite you to say YES. Say YES to have a journey with me whether it be through a program, a workshop, a Divine Beauty Experience or a one on one Energy Session. I invite you to say yes to you! I love you. See you soon! Much love and light always, Leona Your Self Love Expert and Guide Back To Your Heart. www.AwakenTheBeauty.com The full moon is upon us. She'll be at her fullest this Monday, August 7th. This is a particularly powerful moon as we are inching near the eclipse that will be here in just a couple weeks. Did you know that eclipses are portals for manifestation? Full moons are a powerful time to go into ritual space and shed what is no longer serving us. I myself will be going into ritual with other powerful goddesses in my life. In ancient times, the women would gather in the temples to dance for each other. There was a sacred dance called The Snake Dance that was in fact so powerful that it was only meant for the eyes of other women. So the men would guard the temple doors, as the women adorned themselves and danced the sacred dance. The dance was a prayer, and a powerful one! The exact steps may soon be lost, but the intention and essence of this sacred dance will never be forgotten. On this red hot and holy moon, I will be gathering with these women to shed old layers, and channel our prayers. I invite you to join us, whether gathering with other sisters or dancing for yourself. I invite you over the next few days to tap into and channel this dance - to dance your prayers into manifestation. Here are ideas to get you going, or please create your own ritual! 1. Get out your journal and get clear about what you're releasing on this powerful full moon. What is no longer serving you that you're ready to send out to the Universe to be composted and returned to the whole? This is how we make room for the new. 2. Create sacred space for yourself and/or your sisters. Maybe use some red mood lighting... light some candles... burn some frankincense or incense... or maybe it's just as simple as grab a mirror to dance in front of. 3. Adorn yourself. Put on something that makes you feel alive. Maybe its a negligée and your temple jewelry, or maybe it's nothing but red body glitter a red bindi. 4. Put on music that makes you feel sexy and juiced up... like you want to drop to your knees in prayer position and grind. 5. Dance. Dance until your bindi falls off. Put your whole life force energy into this prayer. Remember, it's not about trying to do this ritual "right" or getting it perfect... it's about the intention you put into it. This whole idea may seem edgy or out there for you, but I promise you... a treasure awaits through this ritual. Ladies, it's time that we heal our trauma and wounds around our sexual power. In fact, I feel that this is the most healing and important thing we can each do for the planet at this time! I used to be afraid of my sexual power. I somehow adopted so many beliefs about channeling this sexual power, like "Now that I'm a spiritual teacher..." and a mother." that I thought that I could no longer express this part of myself. But now I see that disassociating or cutting ourselves off from our sexual power is like cutting off our life force as women, and that when channeling this energy responsibly, there is no more powerful energy in the Universe for creation and manifestation. There's a reason why the men were not allowed to see The Snake Dance. It's because few would be able to handle it! When we channel this Divine energy, we have the power to create worlds. Sending you love and blessings, dear Sister, as we dance our prayers and birth a new heaven on Earth. Thank you to one of my beautiful mentors, Rose Cole for sharing this. The power behind this process is amazing! I practice it quite often. Now it is time to BE in your power. DANCE WITH ME! Learn more at www.AwakenTheBeauty.com Subscribe to Leona Wallace on YouTube I remember the crystal blue sky. The sounds of the Meditterrean Sea crashing against the rocks and the dolphins playing close by. They were beckoning me to come closer. As I peered down the edge of the rocks, I knew in my heart there was a path. So I put one foot in front of the other and started to walk. I approached the trees that were guarding the entrance and asked silently for entrance to the pathway. Yes there they were stairs. I followed the stairs down the steep staircase towards the edge of the sea. I was being pulled like a magnet. The force was stronger the closer I got. Then the pathway stopped, yet I still wasn’t as close as I knew I could be. I peered around the rocks and there was the stairs continuing further to the edge. I continued down. The pull was stronger. My heart felt as though it would burst. The smell of the sea was intoxicating. I just had to go.
By this time I realized two of the ladies were following me and chatting amongst themselves. I was in my own world. A spell had been cast upon me, the outside world seemed a blur. The draw was intense. "Come closer. Come closer", were the words I heard. Around the corner I saw the rock platform and the edge just jutted out into the sea. I had to go. I felt the calling. I stepped onto the platform. It all happened so suddenly. As I had stepped…I also slid forward with my left leg. It was dragging me towards the edge of the rock, pulling me to the sea! My back leg stayed, as my left leg slid. Just centimetres away from the edge I stopped, now in the complete splits. Every part of me was split into two. I felt as if I was out of my body. The next is blurry because I was not in my body at this time. I remember I had put my hand out to signal the ladies to stop. I slowly pulled myself to my knees. All I could hear were the dolphins singing. Then I heard the angelic singing. I saw the golden light and the beautiful golden people. I saw a city. I heard words in my head that were very familiar. Yet not the language I speak today. I heard the calling to come home. It was so beautiful and so peaceful. I felt the pull out of my body. The tears were flowing down my face like a waterfall. I felt as if I was in two places at once, conscious of both at the same “time". I am not sure how much time passed before I came back into my body and opened my eyes. I recall that when I did that I turned my gaze to the two ladies sitting at the edge of the rock platform. They had been holding the energetic space for me. They had tears in their eyes. Both of them are very tuned into their gifts. One said to me, “Atlantis”. I had heard the words Atlantis. I just nodded. Still reeling from the trip. It is challenging to explain to you exactly what had happened that day. The power of that experience has changed my life. That day, I died. That day I took a trip to place where I had been before in a different time. Whether you believe or not, is of no concern to me. It was "my" experience. My gift. My opportunity to experience. I can also tell you this. The feeling was so "amazing" and "beautiful". It was very difficult to come back. See once you experience bliss why would you want to experience anything else. My life back in Paris was not so blissful anymore. A lot had shifted. A lot that I had to go "home" and take a look at and ask myself some important questions. "Is this how I wanted to live my life forever?" Things had changed in my relationship with myself and my husband. He was still an amazing and wonderful man. Yet our paths were now different. Because I now had this awareness, I knew I needed to make a choice for us, as he would not. I would require the courage to say "yes" to something only I could see. This day I died and came back. Back with a new perspective on life and what this "journey of love" really is. Love, love for me first. Only then could I BE love for everyone else. Allow me to share with you a beautiful woman's words. She is going to share her journey of love through her personal experience with me. Meet Kim.
I first met Leona Wallace face to face in Paris, France almost exactly one year to date. I was traveling from Grand Rapids, Michigan to the Paris Divine Beauty Experience with my dear friend Jana. A train ride took us from the Charles De Gaulle Airport to the train/bus station where Leona welcomed and assisted us on the last leg of the trip via bus to our Airbnb accommodation in the 1st arrondissement in Paris. Previous to our first face to face meeting, Leona and I had met through Skype in weekly meetings where we both held appointed positions in a global humanitarian service organization. Quite often before the meeting roll-call or following the meeting, there would be casual conversation among us that gave opportunity to get to know one another a little more each time. It was during this time that I started following Leona’s links to Self Love, Divine Beauty and Awaken The Beauty. I was mostly curious really. What did it mean to have ‘Self Love’? I’d spent the better part of my life caring for the health of my body…that’s a form of self love, isn’t it? And what of my mind and spirit, I’ve cared for those aspects of myself also, I thought, I can’t be that far off from self love, can I? So Leona posts an announcement of a Divine Beauty Experience she’s hosting in Paris. I private message her telling how awesome she’s having this experience in Paris, that for the longest time I’ve been wanting to go there…Nearly immediately Leona reposts a change to the original post saying she felt divinely compelled to step out on a limb by offering a much reduced price to the original Paris Divine Beauty Experience. I could not resist. As they say, there are no coincidences. Saying YES to the Divine Beauty Experience in Paris was a catalyst that has set into motion a journey of love, fun, beauty, divine purpose and the reuniting of soul family. So I have just completed a four month Awaken Divine Beauty Coaching Scholarship with Leona. Truthfully I don’t think I would have taken on this kind coaching if it had not been for saying Yes to Ireland Divine Beauty in September of last year, a few months following the Paris experience. Simply because— being in Ireland engaged me in a whole knew way of experiencing myself— sparking channels of trust and love to open a little more each day, allowing myself to dive deeper into the journey with less censoring, while engaging in a similar journey with 9 other travel sisters. I was open to having a heartfelt, fun experience :) Saying Yes to my desire to go to Paris was an act of self love. Saying Yes to my soul calling to go to Ireland was an act of self love. Saying Yes to coaching Awaken Divine Beauty with Leona was an act of self love and a meeting with destiny. —To be continued— www.AwakenTheBeauty.com Upcoming Experiences being offered
I love you ladies! I am so excited to be invited back to Fort St John for February 10th to 12th, 2017. Much love and light always, Venesia xox
So. I would like you to meet Lana. Lana and I met 4 years ago. I like to say it was "Divine Invention" as I know this meeting was planned a long, long, long, long "time" ago. I was looking at ways to have my life be supported with ease, grace and love as I was moving to France! I had this idea I would sell most of my material possessions and take off to France on my own Self Love Revolution. Little did I know the Universe was conspiring to support me in so many mind blowing ways!
So one of the first things I did was write up the "Ideal Profile" for the person who would rent my home and buy my furniture. The very next morning before 8am, the phone rang. And on the other end was this angelic soft voice who saw my ad. Yes it was Lana! When she saw the photos it validated the visions and dreams she had been having. By the end of the conversation we already said "I Love You" and in less than an hour Lana and her family would be the new "home" keepers. And so here we are 4 years later, many experiences under our belts. After the Ireland Experience it was clear to me that I was to gift each woman a full scholarship to my "4 Month Self Love Evolution Program." In exchange, each lady who said yes to the program would share their journey with the world. The visibility piece is a huge factor in any of us moving forward and that is why I integrate it into my programs Well little did I realize...or did I? That I would be challenged in this process as well. I am expanding. I am becoming more visible. I am playing bigger this year. I am uncomfortable most of the time as I am expanding. I am walking the talk, hand in hand. So to move forward, here is Lana being visibile and vunerable as she expands. The challenge...or what I like better to say "opportunity". To write again. This is where it gets more real to me. Well she wrote about my experience and its raw and real. Uncomfortable as I share with you my truth. Lana writes: A Simple Sunday afternoon tea with Goddess Venesia as observed by Goddess Lana. Is not easy. In fact it's quite fucked up. Transformation face tingling moving feel the whole body change. It's like a reprogramming back to the 'truth'. Only one update at a time. It's only successive due to the code needing to be in place. Then the next one. Alternating. Going down the spine going through the the rest of your body. TO mother Sophia to the crystal heart center then out and around the cosmos. AND repeat. My mouth is dry again. When I travel out of my body. Last night that came and showed up. The Pleiadians, the Arcturians, the Sirians. Breathing letting go. And if you really get out of your head to can really feel the expansions. Muscle and memory. It's quicker to go the muscle. That's why is so important to be strong. De-toxic. No more shit. Inflamed inside. The muscles have been expanding. The de-toxic is good due to inflammation. Breathing. Not enough proper breathing going on. My eyes are changing. (Breath) Soft yellow, she presents herself first. Let her in through my breathe. To Me: If you don't soften up you can't receive. You have to feel soft and feminine. It's beautiful to be vulnerable. It's safe. Breathing through her legs. It's is very far away = this planet. No it's not it just appears that way. My essence. Wow, it's it's like icy cold here but a beautiful icy cold here. Frozen. DIsney Frozen. Makes sense. Why I can relate. Bring this back. Anchor this to center earth then the grid.. Integrate and connect with the grid. Venesia shares through her abdomen and out through her center feminine. share with the whole world. We are on track with the world. It's about to get real. REAL and Raw. And Check. In Oneness, Lana Costa Thank you Lana for pushing me to expand as well. Embodying love always Venesia I would love to introduce you to a very special woman in my life. The moment I set eyes on her I knew she was very special. I couldn't explain right away the connection I had with her. It brought tears of joy into my life. As strange as it may sound to many, I feel as though she was and had been a daughter of mine before. And without any words spoken to each other about this, apparently she felt she knew me before. Yet in this lifetime, it was the first time we met. There we were standing in the Paris Airport. She had said YES to an experience that she had no idea about. Her beautiful friend had invited and she said yes because she trusted her. I had no idea that so much was going on in her life and it took immense courage and strength to say yes to come to Paris for this experience. Well that was earlier in 2016 and so much as transpired since then. I would love for you to meet Jana. She is one of 5 ladies that have received the full scholarship to my "Self Love Evolution" program. She will be sharing her journey as she moves forward and steps into her power. Open up your arms and look into her sharing. Perhaps you might see something of yourself. The intent is that the sharing will give you strength and courage as you move forward. Many blessings of love and light to all of you as you step into this new and powerful energy. Love always, Venesisa M www.AwakenTheBeauty.com So often I've allowed my story to be buried. There is an awareness deep within my soul that is so ancient and wise, that the scale of it's enormity scares the crap out of me! When I stand in that truth, all that surrounds me seems to sing it's praises. When I speak that truth everything stops to listen, then rearranges itself to match the vibration of the words coming from my mouth. I find my presence is all that is needed to activate those around me. Reminding every cell within their body of their very own divinty. It is who I am when I allow the light and pure essence of my being to shine through. Yet, for some reason, I fear being seen in this light.
It perplexes me that I would find myself waking up everyday, fearing my greatest potential. As if this potential is the root cause of all the heart break, rejection and abandonment I seem to be experiencing right now. Subconsciously believing I am not worthy of love. When in fact, (I am) love. So I bury it, then mourn and grieve the loss of who I am. I know we all have some level of pain and I know we all hide it. It is the fear of being vulnerable that keeps us from standing in our truth. What if that messy raw truth is the exactly what the world needs. Instead of striving for enlightenment, We simply love the messy raw vulnerable truth that we are because what we are is already perfect and divine. One last note. The description I gave of my truest self is not always squeaky clean and glowing. I am most powerful when I am standing in and loving my own skin. No matter how flawed or broken it may appear. Appearances are only what we see they are not who we are. Jana Wow this was just over four years ago when I visited the South of France. Do you see anything interesting in this photo? Zoom in and check it out. I would be curious to know what you see. Now this is just one photo of many that were taken of me during this experience. Many different cameras were used, with many different perspectives. Yet all had these energies surrounding me. FYI this trip shifted my life forever and is actually what spawned new passion into my purpose in assisting others on this planet. I have actually become sort of a "energy hunter" of sorts. Or they have been hunting me...trying to get my attention. Telling me tales of past lives. Past experiences. Sounds a little out there for most. Yet my experiences have changed my perspective and my clients when they have said YES to coming on a "Divine Beauty Experience." I have learned over the years that I am to go to these sacred places and to pick up pieces of myself, reclaim my tools and power and connect the filaments of light on this planet. Sound out there? Perhaps. Yet again, experiences have shown me my truth. So why do I create the "Divine Beauty Experiences"? So you may have an opportunity to claim back your unique power and to assist with the ascension of this planet because when you reclaim your power and love for yourself, the entire planet benefits.
Experiences are how Divinity expresses itself. Why are we here but to have an experience and I say let's have positive experiences. My "Divine Beauty Experiences" are powerful and life changing. I know this because that is the intention behind the creation of them. So if you are ready for a life changing and positive experience, look no further than here. May 28th we are heading to the South of France. Yes I am heading back again because I know that this will be powerful for all that say yes. I have 10 spots for 10 women who are ready for more in their lives! They feel called for more love, more empowerment, more purpose and more positive experiences in their lives! We will spend 7 days together tracing some powerful footsteps of Mary Magdalene, the Templar Knights and the Cathar people in the Aude region of France. From Paris we will travel by train to stay in a small Medieval Village that will serve as our home base. We will visit Renne-Le-Chateau, Carcassonne, the healing natural hot and cold springs of the area and many more surprises. This is not a regular guided tour. You will be Guided to your heart, to your uniqueness and walk away with a stronger sisterhood and acceptance of yourself. Your investment includes your transportation once you get to Paris, your accommodations, breakfasts and lunches, all of your Energy and Guidance sessions from me. Plus many more surprises. In order to secure your spot, you are required to make a non-refundable deposit of $250 usd towards your $1200 usd investment. You will be responsible for your own way to and from Paris, France, your dinners and any incidentals. Please contact me at wallace.leona@gmail.com for to secure your spot today! Remember always to connect to your heart Venesia aka Leona www.AwakenTheBeauty.com |
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