Over the bridge I go, where I stop nobody knows.
The last month has been a month of transition. I have moved from Portugal. Packed up my life and marriage in Paris. Transitioned back to Canada. Turned 51. Left a job. Searched for a new one. Accepted a new job offer. Moved into a home. Scrubbed and painted my new home. Started a new certification process as a Health and Fitness Instructor. All while being in the most powerful and energetic times that this planet and humanity has ever experienced. Oh and I forgot, I gave up Gluten and Dairy this month as well. Just a few things.
Incredible. No wonder why I am up at 144 in the morning writing this blog. My mind is constantly whirling. My body is in physical pain. My spirit is on fire and I can feel myself within all worlds. Does that make any sense? There is so much going on that I don’t even know where to start. Yet spirit prompts me to wake and write. Even though I am not sure what to share, the importance of sharing my energy and thoughts with you is too powerful not to listen. So here I am.
What does it all mean? We are in the midst of a powerful transition into a new world. We are moving at phenomenal speeds. The best thing is to let go and be in the flow. All while doing the very best that we can. I have learned lately to take even better care of myself. Listen to those prompting thoughts and shift and flow with them. Surrender. It is easier than resisting. Listen and act. Even if it is at 144 in the morning. Love myself. Share with others because I know I am not alone.
My physical self is shifting. I feel my strength in every muscle. I am stretching myself into places that are considerably uncomfortable. Yes my body hurts from my finger tips to my toes. Yet I am loving that I feel all of it. My face has changed as well. My brain feels alert and more alive than ever. I am surrounded with love, so much love. At the same time I feel my heart missing some comforts of the past. My old life. I find my mind is flooded with memories of what use to be…I am also grieving as I am transitioning. Instead of holding on, I allow myself to feel and remember and sometimes cry. Then I breath and feel into my heart. I feel the courage it has taken to transition into the unknown. The immense amount of trust in myself, Source and Universe that I am being Guided over the bridge into the new world. That all will be amazing. All is amazing.
We are in an incredible time. Remember you are not alone. Remember…I signed up for this. It is a great time of joy. My life has prepared me for this time of transition. My experiences have gifted me wisdom so I may lead others as they transition.
My gifts have been heightened. My journeys have brought me back to Canada to assist others as they transition. I am truly grateful.
Remember you are love. Your spiritual journey requires a fundamental ingredient…SELF-LOVE. Be strong. Stay connected. Be love.
Always and forever, Leona
#love #light #self-love #gratitude #together
When I was in Ireland a few years ago, I heard this expression “Feck it!” I loved it. I put it in my back pocket and stored it for the appropriate moments in life. You know the ones I am talking about. When things don’t go as planned, you say “Feck it!” and move on. Perhaps in my wiser years, which I have proclaimed I am in now. The words “Feck it!” are more than necessary. With travelling around the world as well you need to have a little “Feck it!” from time to time or else you would end up stressed and in a ball of tears in the middle of a foreign country at your wits end.
“Feck it!” is my new motto. Life is too full of complications, expectations, measurements, stresses and fears to be attached to a PLAN. Sometimes you just have to say,“Feck it!”
Now by the end of this article you will be saying “Feck it!” too as I have repeated it enough times for it to become your new motto as well.
I am at a time in my life where I am moving at the speed of Leona and being the woman that I always desired to be. Free on every level! I travel the world, I work from my computer and in any country that I desire. I am surrounded with loved ones. I choose to express myself how I may without any attachment to how it is received. I experience everything that I choose to say yes to. And sometimes when things don’t go as planned or life just throws me a curve ball. I just say “Feck it!” I put my hands up in the air and take a deep breath. Trusting that the bigger plan is at play and I just need to let go of the reigns. And every time I do, it is just bigger and better and more beautiful that I had imagined.
My point is maybe it is time to let go a little more. Trust a little more. Breathe a little more. BE a little more. Just say “Feck it” and see what happens. Why not?
Enjoy your life! Sending you love and courage to live the life that you desire NOW!
Love always, Leona
You probably were at the playground or walking along a path. Picked a flower and started picking each petal...He loves me. He loves me not. Remember. Allows trying to arrive at the point where...He loves me.
I am not sure boys ever played this game yet I am sure the thoughts of She loves me, she loves me not have run through their minds. The point being, since we have been children we have been looking for LOVE outside of ourselves.
Which brings me to a song that runs through my head from time to time "Looking for LOVE in all the wrong places."
See this is our challenge. We have been taught from a young age to look for love outside of ourselves and it begins with the relationship of our parents. From the moment we receive a smile from something we did as a very tiny baby, we would repeat the behaviour because it evoked a positive response. So the patterns repeat as we receive a smile, a hug, a cuddle, recognition and so on. We strive for that feeling of love from someone else. This pattern grows and expands into a deep program that can remain with us for the rest of our life. We can become disappointed and even depressed if we have a relationship where we are not receiving love. These patterns and programs can lead to a life time of relationship ups and downs. So how do we break through this belief that love comes from another.
You got it! Self-Love is the magical key to your kingdom of LOVE! Of course it is a perfect time to talk about LOVE as we enter into the famous month of February where hearts, love, gifts and so on overwhelm us and remind us of our lack of love we may have with another or love that is not good enough. Yikes! Don't get me started on Valentines Day! With my birthday being the day before, I have always had a bee in my bonnet with receiving heart shaped cakes, heart cards, wrapping paper, etc. See! I said don't get me started.
LOVE must come from the inside first before we can attract the love on the outside that we desire. How could we possibly expect another to love us unconditionally, when we don't love ourselves. Every single aspect of ourselves fully. How can we possibly expect another to adore and cherish us, if we don't ourselves. How can we expect another to completely understand us and our needs, when we don't understand ourself.
My suggestion is to spend some time with yourself this month. Get to know who you really are. What are your best qualities? Do you love every aspect of yourself? Even your dark side. Hmm...Give yourself the gift of LOVE this month.
As my gift to you, send me a message thru here and I will GIFT you my e-book "Your Self-Love Guide"
**If you really want to know, LOVE is energy, not a feeling. Just thought I would drop that thought provoking statement to get you really tapping in to your heart this month**
Love and light always, Leona
Here we go! Truth time!
Being 50 and beautiful is at a whole other level. What does it mean to be beautiful at my age?
Let’s face it, beauty at 20, 30 and 40 is an outside experience. Always thinking about things like…How is my hair? What about my make up? What about my skin? I have to have the latest fashion look.
Quite honestly, I still have these moments. I am a Goddess! Of course, I care about what I look like. The biggest difference is I don’t care what YOU think I look like because I love all of myself.
Trust me when I say this…this did not happen overnight. This has been a 35 plus year project. Lol I crack myself up. Yet, it is true. I have struggled with my inner and outer beauty for years, yet most didn’t know it. People thought that I was confident and brave and “didn’t give a shit.” Yet I did, more than I ever care to admit. I didn’t consciously realize it most of the time though. I loved and adored fashion and the latest looks. Hence, why I wanted to move to Paris the capital of fashion and beauty in the first place. The place where you are most judged by your outer appearance and where most don’t give a flying F**K what is happening on the inside. Until the moment you are sitting in front of your doctor and he or she is prescribing you with an anti-depressant. Yes, France has one of the highest rates of depression on the planet! Crazy right?!? In fact, middle aged women actually have the highest rates of depression with the disorder being most prevalent among women age 40 to 59 years old. Yikes! As a side note, I am not leaving men out, they suffer as much as we do. We just don't talk about it.
It makes complete sense when we are being judged on our outer appearances and the results that we must produce. We are all overwhelmed with thousands upon thousands of products and the ways to appear younger, tighter, firmer, bustier and more! No pressure.
Yet on the flip side, I have seen it in the smallest of children as they strive for perfection and are never good enough. Yes, this is also in all countries around the world. Yet my experience in France I have seen it amplified.
Also, as a professional Self-Love Expert, I have experienced an increase in clients striving for more Self-Confidence and a desire for an increase in Self-Esteem.
So, what does this have to do with “Beauty At My Age”?
Everything. See Beauty stems from the inside and the more I have studied this and have assisted others on their journeys, the more this truth rings loud and clear!
The day I woke up on my 50th birthday and looked in the mirror. I remember seeing Leona. This beautiful young woman with wisdom lines around her eyes and realized you are the most beautiful I have ever seen you. Look at you, confident, self-assured, radiant, living the life of your dreams, experienced and wiser than you have ever been.
Don’t get me wrong here. I love my beauty products. All my creams and lotions and magic potions. The difference again is I Love Myself! I am not striving for perfection on the outside, I am enjoying the perfection on the inside. Yet I also love to experience my outside beauty to the fullest. Does that make sense?
I also want to let you in on a little secret. Last year when I turned 50…I was offered to work with a series of companies in the Beauty industry who create Quantum Energetic Beauty Products. Their products align you on the inside, so you may experience more of your true outer beauty. So of course, it was an easy yes and fits perfectly in alignment with my work as a Self-Love Expert. Hmm…funny how the Universe works.
Beauty at my age is so much more than what we are taught and shown. Beauty at my age is the accumulation of life experiences. It is the realization that my beauty stems from the inside.
I love myself! All of me! That is my desire for all of humanity! To realize their beauty at ANY AGE and enjoy the experience.
I would love to hear your thoughts around Beauty.
Much love and light always,
By definition, Beauty is something that is pleasing to the sensory systems or the mind, aesthetically. Simple enough, right? And yet, there is a deeper, more conscious context within which to discuss and analyze beauty. Have you ever walked into a party and felt the presence of one person who is lighting up the room, dazzling the crowd through words, gestures, and intrigue? She may or may not be stunningly gorgeous. Either way, people are drawn to her and so you will judge her through rose-colored glasses because of the way she makes people feel and the reaction she receives from the crowd. On the contrary, have you ever looked at a model that you acknowledge intellectually as attractive, yet you experience no real draw? They have all the right symmetrical features, that perfect body, and yet when you look in their eyes, you feel nothing. Dead energy. There is no captivation factor.
This person simply does not warm you. For example, I can’t tell you how many textbook “hot” guys I have absolutely no interest in. I am neither captivated nor attracted. The mojo is missing. And do you know what the difference is? Captivation and perception of beauty has everything to do with one’s capacity to emit frequency and to hold a denser field of photons in the energy that imbues and surrounds the physical body. In other words, beauty has to do with one’s ability to hold light, literally. Light is what draws. Light is what captures. Light is what heals. Light feels good. Light is beauty. It was the late, great Maya Angelou who said, “People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”
When we discuss aesthetics, we refer to what is pleasing to the senses and how we interpret what is "beautiful". From my work as an "Energy Healer and Heart Activator" using a variety of techniques to purify the multidimensional energy systems in order to reconnect my client with their inner glow and high-vibe, “sparkle factor”, while having a background in fashion, I know that the interpretation of what we find attractive has a much more holistic range than what is commonly discussed. Looking exclusively at someone’s physical appearance in judgment of attractiveness is like focusing on one colour of the rainbow, when you feel the rich, expansive diversity of light from the entire spectrum of photons and the power of that full range is what magnetically draws you in. And yet you call that feeling “pink”, because your scope of awareness is limited. Usually, people aren’t fully conscious of why they are attracted to someone, or something. I believe it has everything to do with the relationship between energetic dynamics and the capacity for captivation, and how that relationship affects one’s physical appearance.
You see beautiful ones, to give you a little foundational background: we are Light Beings. Humans are vast and powerful. Humans are multidimensional. When I say this, I mean that there are many dimensions of existence that make up the totality of who you are, beyond this physical understanding. We are made of matter, but behind all matter is an energetic component and the energy systems behind the physical body are beautiful, complex and connected to spirit. We learn that all matter has an energetic component in middle school science classes, but fail as adults to apply this idea to the human body. In fact, everything is energy. Energy is the substance that precedes all physical manifestations in this world. We are drawn to energy or we are repelled by energy. We discuss someone’s “vibe” without fully understanding that this concept refers to the rate at which one literally vibrates.
And guess what? You can shift your vibration. This is your power. The higher your vibration the more light you hold in your field. And know this: what exists as vibrational patterns within you will be manifested into your external world physically. This is Law of Attraction 101. So, instead of focusing on the external component of a difficult situation, we must first learn to focus internally and balance the vibrations. Thereafter, continue to focus on healing the physical components.
Often those who wish to release weight are dealing with a deeper, core energetic pattern associated with the need to protect oneself, and commonly an inability to let go of the past. They are heavy in their field, thus heavy in their bodies. Focusing on light and Self-Love must come first, or at least accompany the physical measures you take to release weight. And so it is with beauty. If there is a blockage in your internal or external energy field often times we will see this in facial features, skin rashes, dark circles, puffiness, bloating, lack of radiance, skin blemishes and acne, weight loss, weight gain, tightness in the jaw, poor posture, or even hair loss. People who unconsciously slump their shoulders are energetically trying to protect their hearts.
So you see, it really is amazing, and quite a new realization through my experiences with my clients, that sometimes after a session people will physically look younger, brighter and more relaxed. And to reiterate, the reason is that when we hold onto blockages in our energy, often times you see it physically. So the old saying goes: "As above so below." This idea relates to my previous explanation that, and I will say it until I am blue in the face, behind all matter is an energetic component. I can literally tell in my friend’s facial features when it’s time for a good ol’ energy clearing
As a culture, we are progressively on the brink of understanding how emotions, vibrations, energy and frequency affect the mind and the body. When you learn to let go of your blockages on an energetic level, it frees up space within your vibrational field to align with the highest possible frequencies of light. As that alignment is reached your outer world will thus reflect your new, empowered state.
You get closer to your natural essence, authenticity, and unique perfection. The physical follows suit to the energetic precedent. Perfection has nothing to do with external standards of symmetry and cultural idolization. Perfection has to do with your genuine alignment with spirit, with the universe, with source energy. When that most important, intimate and powerful relationship is attended to, first and foremost, all else falls into place and the people around you will respond to it. This is when Beauty Meets Divinity. This is when beauty has consciousness and depth. This is where beauty captivates and heals. Hold your light Beautiful Ones and be you. All the power of the universes exist within you, as you learn to harness the full range of your creative capacity. When you do this, you glow. You shine, and your walk becomes Sacred. All we must learn to do is shine the light that we already are.
With love always from me and my team
Who am I kidding? It is always the season to Gift and Receive. It makes my heart sing. I am always looking for opportunities where I can gift back.
Now this is my running pattern and sometimes I can do this to a fault. Do you know what I mean? Okay let me reframe this. Have you ever given, given, given until you are exhausted? Have you given so much you are beginning to feel resentful that it is not being appreciated? You give until there is nothing left of you. Well there are many things underlying this "condition". Yes I believe it is a condition. Now just feel into this and see if any one of these statements ring true for you or trigger you. Are you looking for acknowledgement? Are you lacking in self-worth and searching for your value by over giving? You could be hiding behind this. And lying to yourself. No I just love giving, that is who I am! Are you looking for love and appreciation outside of yourself? Do you secretly fear that if you stop giving, they won't love you for who you are? Does any of this ring true?
Let me tell you a dirty little secret. This was me. This was my sub-conscious pattern that I was not aware of. I was hiding behind over giving and feared that if I stopped being so generous...the love and appreciation would stop. And if I stopped...I would have to look at me and who I really was. Than I would have to look at what my self-worth was. OMG! I would have to go into my heart and look at my truth. Ugh! Yucky right? Let me tell you what happened when Leona started changing her pattern of giving, giving, giving. My worst nightmare happened. Everything I feared came true. First family, loved ones and friends were like what the heck? What is going on? Leona isn't dropping everything for us and fixing our problems. I can't just call Leona and she will over compensate and make everything right. How dare she say no? They were confused. They called me selfish. They said she is so self-absorbed. She cares about no one but herself. Really? Me...selfish and self absorbed. I was none of those things. Yet people closest to me were feeling hurt and betrayed. They stopped talking to me. Even got angry at me. My worst nightmare, no one loved me! The spiralling began. The self-doubt within. Lack of self-worth. Not only did my family stop talking to me, my business was suffering. My marriage was falling apart. My world was spinning out of control and I went into a deep depression.
Yes the Self-Love Expert lost everything she knew to be true. I took a step back from my life. I retreated from everything I knew and sequestered myself into a tiny apartment and told no one where I was. I was a fucking mess and didn't let anyone know. I still pretended sometimes to put on a pretty face and smiled. Yet I was a complete mess. I kept going back and forth to my husband trying desperately to figure this out. What the F***? It was probably the hardest two years of my life.
Why do I share this with you? Because there is huge value in this. We are all growing and learning. Sometimes we need to lose everything we know, so we can expand and truly learn to love ourselves. Because there is an opportunity to come out the other side with so much self love and empowerment. You can choose to be a victim of your experiences or you can choose to be a powerful being that you are. Yes we all have the GIFT of choice. It is the gift that keeps on giving. Choose to expand or choose to withdraw. Which do you choose? I choose to expand and love myself more each moment. I choose to be the best version of me each day and enjoy each experience to the fullest. Even if it is hard.
I have come out the other side of this with so much self love and self awareness. I have learned to love more deeply. I have an awareness of who I truly am. I am love. I feel this in every cell of my body. Now I gift from a place of that knowingness and will always do so. I don't give from a place of lack or trying to fill a void or a place of wanting to be recognized or appreciated. I gift because I am here to be of service and share my experiences. So I choose to be in the most Loving Relationship with myself first and than gift from that place and receive from that space as well. You get to choose whether you want to receive that gift. Oh...receiving is a whole other level to this which I will share more on soon.
Sending you beams of LOVE ENERGY!!!
We know that Joy, Happiness, Bliss and Good Feelings can be obtained through the right experience. We even have science that can measure the effects of this through your heart coherence. See this States of The Heart by the "Heart Math Institute"
The question is how can we sustain these positive feelings when we leave the experience?
I am all about the experience. Heck I created Divine Beauty Experiences
I am all about the high and how can we sustain that feeling of joy, bliss and happiness. That is why I am always on the search for new ways and methods to create this possibility. Not just yoga and meditation, these are great and valuable! Yet I am also about the processes and techniques and products! Leading edge possibilities that think outside of the box.
I want to share something with you very exciting. It’s a combination of the right people, the right places and the right products mixed into an experience that is sustainable after you leave and return home. When I came upon this, every cell in my body began vibrating. Finally, there it is! Everything I have been called to search for, someone else had the brilliant idea to create it.
While I am not an expert in #Beauty products, I do have years of experience and I have travelled the world and have had the luxury of trying a multitude of beauty skincare and cosmetics. So I guess that makes me a self-proclaimed expert. After a few posts on FB and Instagram this amazing Swiss company contacted me and asked if I wanted to try their products. Of course I said YES! Hello. So a few short days later the product arrived. Like a giddy school girl, I danced in circles as I held the box in my hands. Anticipating the gifts! Don’t forget this product knowledge fell into my lap and now was in my hands. I opened up the box and immediately felt gratitude coursing through my veins.
Let me tell you a little bit about this product and the producers. They have been in the skincare business since 1979. They are located in a pristine and beautiful village in Switzerland. They have been certified organic, eco-friendly, green and the first to be certified in #Quantum SkinCare. Oh yes you heard me. Quantum Energetic SkinCare. Instead of me trying to convince you, check out this link.
Here is the laboratory and online store PhytoVillage Online Store
Their Blog PhytoVillage Blog
I am all about releasing the inner beauty so it may resonate on the outside. Now here is a product I can align myself with.
I am very emotional this morning as I write this blog. Not out of anything negative, only out of pure joy and gratitude. Why? Because I am leaving Portugal soon…I will be back. Yet this morning as I was journaling I had this huge wave of emotion come through. Portugal has been a beautiful surprise one after another since I stepped into this country 71 days ago. I have been guided, supported, loved, encouraged, expanded, healed and more through my experiences here. It has been such a positive experience like a warm embrace of something very familiar and a place I will always call home. I have travelled and lived many places and Portugal is my favourite.
Now I want to share with you my biggest surprise and my most amazing blessing here. That is my experience with the masculine. I have made the most amazing male friends here. They all have the biggest hearts, they have been the most generous, have had the kindest words, they have expressed the most thoughtful actions and have been my biggest teachers in this lifetime so far. Now that is a lot to say!
I am truly, truly blessed to have all of these men in my life! They have opened my heart and increased my understanding and awareness of what was required for me to grow and learn. They also held the space with love, understanding and support as Leona is being Leona. This is a huge feat in itself. I am so grateful for all of them. I am sure that if I sat here and named them one by one that they would be embarrassed and say “Leona, no problem. It is only normal to be like this.” They have literally opened the doors for me to heal.
What I also realized is that none of this would have showed up if I had not been ready to RECEIVE this. It is because of all of the years of inner work. All of the years of “failing” at relationships. All of the years of peeling back layers of my mask. All of the years of building up “Am I worthy?” All of this has prepared me to receive the beautiful gifts that the masculine has bestowed upon me. I have come back to my love. My beautiful masculine, here in Portugal. This is where my union happened. I will always be so grateful for the men that stepped forward on my journey to provide me with their gifts to make this all a reality.
My Amazing Knights in Portugal! Actually…my Amazing Kings of Portugal!
I am so tempted to name them one by one. Yet they know who they are. They all have my heart…forever and always.
Every corner that I turn more magic unfolds in the streets of Portugal.
I have been here 3 weeks and each day more miracles unfold to receive.
It was never in my awareness to venture to Portugal until about a year ago. Than the signs started to come to me that I needed to create one of my retreats here. So the journey began. The Universe brought me beautiful connections from Portugal and the energies began to connect and conspire in the background, calling me to be in Portugal. Little did I know at the time, that my plans would go to the wayside for the bigger ones that the Universe had in store for me. Oh what wondrous ways the Universe works...especially when you trust and let go of control.
There has been so much that has unfolded and so much more to come, that I have decided to create a whole vlog/blog dedicated to this journey with the intention of sharing not only the magic of Portugal but also the people, experiences, the love, the awareness, the energy and so much more. So your journey will be enriched and assist you in your growth.
Stay connected and I will share this page soon. I am honoured to be on this journey with you.
Always with love. Leona
Time to get even more connected! There are crazy energies happening on the planet and I am here to lead you in love and with love!
Whether this makes logical sense to you or not does not matter. What matters is you are here. Which also means your higher self lead you hear to receive a message. Only you know what that message is.
I can only lead you to your heart and to remember to love yourself!
Your heart is the gateway to all of the answers and to your spiritual evolution!
Connect today. Unravel the gifts you have inside. Experience your magic and power and manifest a completely beautiful and loving experience.
I am always here for you on this journey.
Much love always,